هو احنا امتي كبرنا

هو احنا امتي كبرنا

سؤال ابتديت اساله لنفسي مؤخرا

بعد ما ابتديت احط رجلي علي الارض

اصلي كنت زمان عايشه في البلالا لاند

مكنتش عارفه يعني ايه واقع اصلا

كنت فاكره الدنيا الوان

وان صحابي عندهم بابا وماما زي بتوعي

وان لو ارتبطت بحد حيبقي زي بابا

وان صحابي حيفضلوا معايا

واذ فجاه الدنيا قررت تقولي ان ده في احلامي بس

فالدنيا والقدر ابتدوا يوروني وش الواقع

وابتديت اشوف كل حاجه علي حقيقتها

حقيقه مكنتش شايفاها من كتر ماكنت عايشه فعالم مثالي بتاعي

بفتح شباكي واشوف الدنيا بعيني

عيني اللي ماشفتش وحش من امي وابويا

عيني اللي شافت معاهم دنيا جميله بعيدة عن دنيا القبيحه

دايما بنقول ان مفيش حد وحش

بس لما نيجي عند الدنيا نلاقيها وحشه اوي

وفجاة جت فدماغي اغنيه فريد الاطرش الحياة حلوة

واعلان فتافيت الحياة حلوة

لو الواحد خد معاني الكلام وفهمه

ان الدنيا هي دنيا والحياة حياة

الدنيا دي محطه لدنيا اكبر

وان كل اللي بيحصل فيها عشان نقوي ونحب حياتنا اكتر

يمكن جيلنا شاف اللي خلي الشعر الابيض يبان في عز شبابنا

اتحط فمواقف كبرته بزيادة قبل الاوان

ويمكن ده الاوان محدش يعرف

يمكن ده اوان الاختبار

اختبار النفوس و الفلوس والصحه والنفوذ

اختبار الصدمات

صدمه تحول النفوس و فقدان العزيز وضياع الحلم مع فقدان الامل من المحاوله تاني وتالت

الواحد من كتر الصدمات بقي مشروخ

جواه اهات وتكسير ومش عارف ينطق ويقول

بقي عايش ومش عايش

جيلنا علي قد ما في زمن حديث فيه مليون طريقه تواصل لكنه عايش سجين معزول

ايوه سجين شاشه عشان بقي يخاف يقول

اصله لو قال اللي جواه محدش حيفهم وحيقولوا عليه مجنون

وماله الجنون في زمن تاهت فيه العقول

ياريتنا فضلنا صغيرين ولاكبرناش

بس دي رحله ولازم تتعاش

لازم كل واحد فينا يدور علي مكان يحس فيه بالحياة

يدور علي ناس تشوف ملامحه وتحفظها

مش ناس تشوف كلامه ايه وتدوس لايك عليه

ناس تسمع صوته ونبره وانين قلبه الموجوع

ناس تطبطب عليه وتفضل حواليه

مش ناس تبعتله برقيه من كلمتين واهو بكده عمل اللي عليه

الحياة قصيرة ومش مستاهله كل التلج ده

لما الواحد بيعيش وسط ناس بيحبها وفجاة عزيزه بيتاخد منه

ساعتها بيعرف ان مفيش حاجه تستاهل

وان الحياة قصيرة عشان تتعاش فخناق وشد وجذب وخيانه وقله اهتمام و الحب اصبح كلمه مش فعل

الواحد لازم يدور علي اللي بيحبه ويعمله

يدور علي ناس بيحب يبقي معاهم

يدور علي حياته اللي تاهت منه وسط الزحام

يدور علي نفسه اللي راحت بين مين قال ومين عاد

يدور علي روحه اللي قعدت تنادي عليه عشان يرجع لغايه مصوتها اتنبح وانجرح

يدور عليه من تاني و يطبطب علي نفسه و يداوي روحه من تاني

لو حياته فاضل فيها ثواني

تستاهل انه يلاقي نفسه ويعيش عايش من تاني

a letter to Eve

Dear Eve,
   No matter where you are ,who you are,be sure you aren`t alone
I know how it feels,truly madly deeply
The problem is that pain gathers hearts together
Pain makes us suffer but we gain same-time
we gain our lost selves
You have all the right to cry till your wound is removed from deep inside You
Give yourself time to heal
pressing the wound every now and then won`t make it heal
but listening to your silent shouts and your scattered tears will make you see later so clear
Never stop listening to yourself ,try to be kind to your heart
It suffered alot from the other heart that was supposed to complete
that`s life ,you meet by a chance &you broke up by choice
it`s still destiny you know
So kindly smile and put your trust in God`s hands
He knows you and knows what you really deserve
sometimes the poor heart can be deceived
don`t be surprised my dear
yeah it can be deceived ,cos you have a kind heart
You simply believed some spoken out words and didn`t see a real out loud action
An action that can say more than a million words can say
You`ve been raised among real men so you never thought Yours would be far away from them
Yes my dear Eve,unfortunately he wasn't man enough for you
He couldn't hold tight to you and fight for you
i can listen to your heart crying from the deep wound my dear
hey,may be its hard now but im certain you gonna pass through that all
You are more stronger now than before believe me
Its just you were living inside your fantasy world thinking its real
but life showed you whats fake from whats real my dear
Keep in mind that you aren't crying now for him
You are just shocked from the broken promises and the false actions and the lies
Face it Eve,he didn`t love You ,he couldn't prove his love,it was just some words
yeah some false fake ones to make your pure smile shine so he can see it
he loved himself more ,unfortunately
You know words at nice times can be said in an awesome way but
it can be really proved at the most hardest situations you can ever pass through
so you should wait my dear to see it though
sometimes people love You cos they see themselves better with you
once they are put into situation to choose between themselves and You,they choose themselves
that's not true love Eve,you were just deceived
True love is someone to love You for who you are no matter what
they fight and fight and fight and never leave
it`s ok my dear,it`s ok Eve
You just didn't know what was real
But now You do know
Now you can see ,you are no longer blind my dear
so smile and Thank God for helping You to pass all this through
You deserve to be happy with someone who really know You
someone who loves You and prove it for you without asking him to
someone to make you feel safe
Eve......
i know....i know....i really do know
You aren`t alone believe me
so smile and shine Eve
smile and shine
Tomorrow is a better day
 be certain that Your knight wil show up one day
and for that male who deceived you
you should be thankful to
don`t be surprised my dear
yeah you should
because of him you will know when a true gentleman will come
you will simply know
life made you learnt the hard way through your heartache
love yourself and listen to her more
shine for your own ,you owe yourself much more
Oneday,
your one will come and collect all the pieces of your heart
you will be healed through his true love
so live your life with a smile
you are never a loser
you are a winner my dear
smile and shine please
till we meet again

Yours Sincerely,
   Another Eve

my lovely winter here you are and here I come

.......its too cold outside
Winter is singing by my side
Oh my dear winter
I missed You so much
Ive been waiting for you to come
Here you are.....here I come
Many many things I wanna share
Many many things I wanna you to blow it away in vain
I miss walking under your lovely rain
I miss dreaming over and over again
I miss singing my old song we used to share
Im back to you and you back to me I swear
I wanna run under every drop of your rain
I wanna renew me all over again
Life has showed me a lesson full of pain
But now im able to collect myself and gain
Gain from every single pain
As You see the love we used to talk about
Life showed me that sometimes its rare
You see things that you wanna declare
Love can be seen and felt deep inside
But when actions put love aside
This can't be what you were trying to find
Love is all about keeping your promises
Love is to stand and fight till the end
Not lose your breath and can't defend
Love is to hold on tight
And never let it hide from your sight
Love is to be fair enough to stand for what's right
Love is to be able to give and take all at onetime
It lighten your soul and show you your hidden sides
It gives you the strength to continue till the last moment of your life
When you walk a very long way and just before the end
You turn your back and go away this isn't what true love says
True love is to hold on tight and tight
And when you are weak you take your strength from their side
Love is trust
Love is true care
Love is an endless share
Love is to see things together
Love is to step forward hand in hand
Love is to give the promise but never take it back
Love is the warmth of a dream come true after all you've been through
Love is to be fair enough to judge
Love is to be kind enough to wait
Its never about breaking everything and escape
Love gives you the courage to stand still
Love is to promise and have the will
Love is about two who became one
Two who can share in good and bad
Love is to have a brightful hope for tomorrow
Cos today you start, tomorrow God willing you continue
Love is to have one dream together
Love isn't to walk away on your own
Love is to fight for your dream
Love is to never be weak
Love is to stay and never leave
So this is what me and you my lovely winter used to know
But life showed me that I was so wrong
Sometimes you think your song was heard
But then you realise that its your echo that occured
Cos if it was another voice your melody would have been complete
It simply was so far away from what you believed it would be
When you walk together side by side for your life's walk
And suddenly you find yourself walking all alone
You try to recall every single detail
To make sure you weren't on your own the whole walk
Someone was there or it was just a mirrage of your soul
You try to think what was that?
Was it a game? A joke ? Or unfair taim
May be it was all only inside your brain
May be the promises weren't really meant to be for real
And simply wasn't there
Cos if it was truly true
You wouldn't be staying here and talking through
It was just a mirrage on a misty day
If there was another voice
You would have heard and you both sway
But its just you and me my winter standing at the bay
Let's listen to the rain and make it wash away the pain
Let me close my eyes and sway
Its my song....its my world....its my bay ^^

Scattered whispers

never trust the beginnings
true and real words are said at the endings
#scattered_whispers

I Love You,i love you,i love you ..................etc
its nice to listen to but its unique when actions talk through
#scattered_whispers

promises,promises,promises.............forever&ever
give you a temporary warmth &then cold when its broken
so always wait and see,never directly believe
its better to be cold then feeling warm than to be frozen after a deep warmth
#scattered_whispers


together forever..............
"together forever"is a box where both are takers & both are givers
it can`t be from one side cos at that moment "together" will disappear
together will never be gathered ,will only be scattered
#scattered_whispers



conversations should be from both sides&decisions as well
don`t listen to the well said words wait and see, just wait and see
#scattered_whispers


can`t wait to be together.........
can make you happy at the current moment
but later it would all disappear so again just wait and see
#scattered_whispers


don`t be that happy with flower given to you
sometimes its a flower in-front of you and a knife from your back
#scattered_whispers


don`t trust easily especially the words
let the actions talk louder&gain your trust
#scattered_whispers


its ok to fight for something you believe in &feel its right
but when you fight alone,its others` problem not your own
#scattered_whispers


never put expectations on anyone
cos people do change badly
and all you can take are some disappointments
#scattered_whispers


Some people aren`t as they seem
want to really know them well
simply put them into action
sit down and watch
you will be really surprised
#scattered_whispers


some people try to gain your trust
others try to re-gain your trust
while another gain&re-gain&lose your trust
that`s life
#scattered_whispers


when someone really loves you
they prove it to you without asking them to
#scattered_whispers


#scattered_whispers  inside me
trying to find a way out
life is not that idealistic like we think it is
but not everyone is evil
not everyone is true
just don`t trust easily
let the actions speak than words
don`t run towards people
sometimes they build an invisible wall
so you  get badly hurt while you running through
just wait&see,walk slowly towards thee
its better to be patient than to be a patient
its never easy,its always hard
but its yourself that you have got
so you never loose you simply came to life to learn

بحر الحياة

بحر الحياة.............

بحر الحياة غدار و احنا لفين رايحيين

شايل معاه اسرار و احنا معاه ماشيين

ايام تفوت و تروح واحنا ولا حاسيين

احلام تعيش وتموت يا قلوبنا يا خايفيين

>>>>وقعدت اسمع منير كتيير كتيير

فضلت اعيد و ازيد فيها

يمكن عشان هو ده اللى انا عايشه فيه

بحر الحياة ....بحر الحياة......ياه ياه

الحياة ياما فيها و فيها 

بس احنا اللى خايفيين نجاريها

الواحد بيعيش بيحاول يعرف هو فين فيها

بيفضل يدور على نفسه اللى تايها وسط ضواحيها

يروح من محطة للتانية يقابل فيها و فيها

فيها وشوش بتضحك و وشوش حزينة

 قلوب صافية و قلوب القسوة فيها

تقابل ده و تسمع لده تصدق ده و تنخدع فى ده

قلبك يحس بامان و يفتكر ان اللى قدامه انسان

يبتدى يغنى كمان و كمان

اصله كان حاسس انه ان الاوان يعزف لحنه اللى مخبيه من زمان

و يبتدى يغنى و يقول و يقول

كان فاكر ان لحنه حيتسمع و فى القلب التانى حيتشال

بس طلع غلطان و لحنه لا اتسمع و لا اتغنى لكنه اتهان

فجأة حس انه مش قادر يكمل و محتاج يرتاح

قعد مع نفسه يحاول يجمع هو ازاى مخدش باله

ان الصوت التانى اللى كان بيغنى معاه هو صدى صوته

ياه ياه على بحر الحياة

بنقابل ناس و ناس

ناس الكلمة عندها عهد

وناس الكلمة عندها ابعد ما يكون من الوعد

كلمة "بحبك" وعد كلمة "مع بعض على الوعد" عهد

ازاى جرح القلوب مش محسوب

ازاى الوعود كلها كلام فاضى مش معقول

ياه ياه على بحر الحياة

الواحد يفضل يحلم و يحلم 

واول مايبقى الحلم حقيقة يطلع كله سراب

يفضل يسأل نفسه مليون سؤال من غير جواب

جواه بركان لا بينطفى و لا بيتشال

اصله مكانش فاكر ان بحر الحياة عالى اوى كده

كان فاكر ان الدنيا ابسط من كده

بس الدنيا علمته و فهمته غلطته

غلطته انه صدق و امن و غنى من قلبه بكل اللى حاسه

ليه مفضلش ساكت و خبى اللى جواه حتى عن نفسه

ماهو ده البنى ادم بيعيش حلم و اول مايقرب و يبقى حقيقة

تييجى الدنيا و بحرها الكبير و يتوه هو ويسلم للمصير 

What had she done wrong?

what had she done wrong?
that question will be haunting her for a while
 till her heart and mind meet at one point
but until this happens,she will keep asking herself that question,
onetime blaming herself for being fool that she believed in his words for too long
 and another telling herself may be one moment he meant what he said,
she was trying to find any excuse for him so as not to see herself being this blind,
she simply forgot that to care is not only to say
 but to act in a way that make her feel safe and well appreciated
 make every wonder inside her take her slowly to a safe shore
 not to be left to rough winds pulling her madly on her face ,that she cant find her balance
 she felt shes drifted away that she can no longer sway
everything collapsing around her
as everything in the dreamy zone is possible and reality have no place there
once her feet touched the ground everything started to talk out loud
she started to see what she was trying hard not to
she started to gather all the lines together
she started to read out loud so her heart and mind would listen together
she started to gather herself and see the ugly truth
The truth that many people would travel miles so as not to face it
The truth  that many would choose to be blind than seeing it
The truth that make actions speak louder than words
she started slowly to look back and realize 
that not everything said is really meant
and if its meant this doesn't mean that it will be done
she started holding to this truth
telling herself that she may meet many , cherish few and believe rare
that not everyone care would do so much to cherish such share
So......
         Here she is, realizing thee

it`s always ourselves we find in the sea

Today my eyes met such quote and immediately captured my mind and soul
as i do believe in that so much
no matter how lost I can be
the sea always gather the aches of"me"
and repair me slowly with every whisper he whispers to me
there,only there i feel im taken care of
there,only there i feel my silent shout is heard
there,only there my heart can scream
there,only there my eyes can drop all the tears that has been hidden deep inside me
there,only there i feel im loved
there,only there i feel im not alone
the sea has always been there for me for real
at such life you meet who keep saying we are there for you,we are around while the fact is
they aren`t really around,can`t really feel you nor be there for you
they only spread their words but not their actions
cos simply they dont know you like sea does
they dont know how they can act towards you
how can they try to cure you and be really around
if you count the words and real actions in your life
you would have dozens of words and very few actions
thats life,you meet many and cherish few
so its better to stop blaming people cos they won`t even understand the blame
you simply blame yourself for expecting at the first place
this is life,its not your fairy-tale and if you wanna live your fairy-tale simply don`t share
you were wrong letting people listening to some of your melodies
as they won`t understand its meaning,so play it but for noone but yourself
don`t do the effort for explaining cos they won`t understand and your soul will be the only one complaining
whenever you feel lonely ,just drop everything and run towards the sea
and you gonna feel complete,there you may sway with every melody of your heart beat
my beloved sea,thanks for being there for me

searching for someone called "me"

strange feeling controlling me when i came back to my place in here

actually not just one feeling,many and many

in here i feel myself,i feel the things i miss at real life

in here i feel i can see the real" me"

as in real life i can see only my mirage

my"me"used to be inisde "me"&with "me"

i somehow lost her at real life

don`t know how i let this happened

but it just happened

in real life,im feeling lost,lonely,sad,down,choked

cant even listen to myself

may be cos of the many echos around " me"

may be iam crazy,cos both are the same"me"

but real life was so hard

that it separated them apart

back to writing is a way to get her back to" me"

its all trials may be it would work,may be not

but in all cases its" me" with "me"

so the trial wont include others

so it worth the try,cos its " me" im searching for in here

you&I

sitting all alone,thinking killing me&silence drifting me far away from everthing i know&everything inside, sometimes life becomes an evil monster that destroys every plant that you have been planting for years,all i wish now is to still be having the seeds,sometimes you feel you standing alone on your own, i used to get afraid of such moment till i knew its the best thing to do,go far away and be with yourself, cos any silent shout is never replied nor heard i realized that being abandoned is much better than being surrounded by many and still you feel lonely and they never meet your expectations, at such life to live happily is to expect none , cos when ppl dont meet your expectations you feel so bad, really bad,i wish i didnt have to stand alone but life taught me that i have to, nomatter how im dying deep inside,nomatter how my soul is bleeding i have to,im the victim and im the healer,thats how it shall be, i never thought that oneday i would write that way but i have no other way i miss my dreamy moments i miss myself i miss my soul when it sway i miss everything that has been planted deep in my way when i didnt plan for a kidnapping moment, i found my feet taking me to my beloved sea at one of the places that have been captured in a pic that i still carry,i found mysoul listening to an old song saying you&i,like a ship forever sailling,thats you&me my beloved sea,i miss you&i miss me

صورة / a picture

this was the first time for me to write in my own language,never tried after this one,i will try to translate it for my friends who don`t know Arabic :)



مرة كده من المرات اللى انا قعدة فيها انا و انا....كنت بقلب فى الصور اللى عندى
مكنتش صور لحد معين ........كانت صور طبيعية و صور تخليك تحلم و تروح لبعيد....بعيد اوى
افتكرت ساعتها طلب اطلب منى مرة و هو انى اسيب عينى تروح لأى صورة منهم و اسيب احساسى يتكلم
ممممممممم على قد منا بحب احساسى ياخدنى بعيد بس المرة دى كانت غير كل مرة....للحظة...
للحظة حسيت انى مش قدرة اروح هناك....كان فيه حاجة مسكانى
لقيت صوت من جوايا اول مرة أسمعه...بيقولى ....صورة؟
الصورة دى حبة الوان مع بعض.....و اللى
و اللى بيخلي الصورة تتكلم مش اللى جواها اكتر من احساسنا نفسه
احساسنا اللى مش قدرين نحسه فى الحياة.....فكل مرة عينينا تشوف صورة
احساسنا يسبنا و يطلع من جوانا و يجرى على الصورة يحاول يعيش و لو للحظة
قبل مناخده و نرجعه تانى جوانا و يفضل حزين سجين بين ضلوعنا


translation

onetime of the times i was sitting me with me
i was checking the pictures i captured
werent pictures for specific outing
just some pictures for nature that would take you so far away
i remembered when i was asked once to let my eyes surrender to any picture of them
and let go of my feeling to speak out loud
for a moment i felt i cant go there,something was holding me back
there comes a voice from deep inside me asking me.......picture?
the voice continued telling me : "the pictures is a collection of colors gathering together,
   and what makes it talk not its colors more than our feeling we feel towards it
the feeling that we cant feel in reality so everytime our eyes fall on the picture
our feeling leaves us and run so fast towards the picture trying to live there even for Only a moment
before we capture and take it back to live as a sad prisoner deep inside us

a true story quoted,close to my heart

A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter:
"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river." The little girl said:
"No, Dad. You hold my hand."
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...

Blog Hop Saturday 1st September,2012 #5

Love`s Cove Challenge #4 -8-26-2012

It's that time again! Time to head on over to apd-loverscove.blogspot.com, other wise known as Lovers' Cove and take part in this week's challenge! Please read the Guidelines and Q's & A's thoroughly before entering! In short, you must come up with a line of 15 words or less and your line must continue on in thought based on what the previous person on the linky wrote! 

Andy`s Line
      "Behold! I am renewed again, for the spirit of love has descended upon my heart!"

 Crystal`s Line
       "Years, I've wandered aimlessly through the midst of the shadows trying to elude the dark."

 Elen`s Line
       "Darkness isn´t always so dark, sometimes becomes hope when our imagination wants to look for a light"

 My Line
       "A light that has been trying to find its sight through such darkness night"

RFW # 43 : A walk with my beloved sea

Oneday, needed a walk with my beloved sea releasing my troubled mind,my eyes fall on special scene that washes away any troubles i carry,taking my first step,

 my eyes fall on an old man taking hands of his beloved wife,just watching them walking side by side,I felt joy seeing such kind of love that’s still growing ,as time passes by,becomes more deeper&true,watching slowly every step they make till settling at sea shore,away from real life,children& grandchildren , trying to continue the picnic they started with sea longtime ago.

 “I found myself wishing that we`d be like these true hearts who kept their love&carried such endless moments alive inside as long as they can,never faded away”

 continuing my walk,suddenly,a laugh stopped me,a 3 years old child running with his dad,the mom encouraging her baby to continue running,just watching this pure laugh and realizing how much a simple thing would give a complete joy to such angel that he will carry deep inside forever and be one of his endless memories that when getting old,recall such memo to wash away a recent sorrow that would appear on his way.

 for a while i didnt go back to my mind`s bubble as waves of sea were calling me to stay with thee,there just there,found myself recalling back my memories& whispers,felt you were around although you`re on another shore ,we still didnt meet but sea was trying to tell me about your whispers too that oneday we will meet gathering ours all, sitting on that rock,listening to these waves&continuing such picnic together. 

 Continuing along with my walk,my eyes fall on 2 lovers crossing street towards sea,holding hands,in the middle of the road he changed his position facing car`s direction,watching carefully traffic catching the moment to cross safely by his beloved to other side,this simple move really touched me,it carries alot within”safe&shelter&real love and care

 ” i passed slowly by them and wished them to always carry such kind of love"

 this simple move showed me that true love is to care about your one without thinking, just what you carry for your one deep inside teaches you how to say i love you through a simple move,simple smile,simple glance.

 At this moment i found myself can`t walk anymore,i smiled to sea,closed my eyes and went in a picnic with the waves of the sea again and started to sing my soul`s song..... 

Insanity Leading to Escape

 insanity leading to escape on Thursday, 10 March 2011 at 20:20 ·

 ~No Appetite ~

 everywhere ppl r driving you crazy

&here talking to yourself all the time do the same ,

 and if anywhere else ppl are gonna reply in one case

 if you talk about non important vacant silly issues ,

so the equation lead to one answer

 which all cases here and there you talking to yourself

 no taste for anything

 all ppl are same with nothing special and onething common,

 which is just talking and no actions and reactions

all features are same

 all voices are same

all issues became one issue

 nowhere to go no one to talk to

 its just you

and everyone has nothing to to do

 except annoying you

and making you feel more alone in such unnamed zone

 where no one special nor no one true

 all are clowns dancing in front of you

 just playing and getting you life`s flue

 its a flue that has no medicine to be cured

its words and quotes and lies that cant be true

its a false long story we living through

such story about this life that we thought its true

 where everything is fake and we cant have a CLUE

a clue to make us see clearly what we passing through

 its a zone that make you stand and cant say a word

 its a zone that make you keep watching and just cant move on

 its a zone that make your mind freezed

and your heart cant beat and u barely can breathe

 everywhere became the same that lead you to escape

 thats if escaping can find a way though such wild place.............

many pathes showing waiting u to start a new journey... you free to choose.....if it this or that or those.... wish all of you would be guided by our beloved ALLAH to choose the right true safe path.....for the whole life....

Blog Hop Saturday #4 4-8-2012

Sea After longtime no see 20th July,2011

It has been a longtime.....
a time with no sea
just me with me
or simply me with stranger life out there
everyday that passes used to take me far away
life is drowning us from the beauty we can see
deep inside i was longing for my beloved sea
but simply i couldn't save sometime to be with thee
i used to know that wonderful time always come without planning
while i was staying reading
the door opened and i was told to get prepared
when i asked where are we going
the answer was......to meet your beloved sea
i couldn't believe it i thought it was a dream
i got dressed differently than any other day
the moment i arrived my heart beats were arguing
every beat wanted to leave me and run to the sea
just to say hello and wait me to come and see
see what my eyes missed for a longtime
feel what my heart longed for so long
live what my soul badly needed to live
the moment my feet touched the sand
i have been kidnapped ........
away from people around me
away from any side talking
i simply found the sea calling me
and the stars lighting up my path
the path that i have been away for a while
i found the waves finding its way to touch me
every wave struggling with the other just to reach me
as if sea wanted to tell me.......about what happened
when i was so far away
i found my heart leaving me
going deep inside the sea just to listen to the stories
i found my soul saying out loud what i have been saving unspoken
i slowly raised up my eyes to the sky
i found starts coming towards me
slowly and slowly.....
telling me about every whisper has been said
every dream has been kept
a sudden sound came and took me
it was the laugh of a young child
holding his dady`s hand and coming closer to the sea
and then going far......stepping in and out
the child was sooo afraid to get closer alone
till a tender touch from his dady made him felt safe
safe to get closer and play with the waves
it was an endless melody
a melody of the waves wrapped with pure laughs
for a moment i felt iam in a dream
a dream that kidnapped me
a dream that recharged me
a dream that healed me
although time passed so fast
but for tonight i will close my eyes
and keep dreaming of such real dream
just wanted to share you
what my heart saw tonight
wishing you all good night

RFW wk41 : it`s me

its a big wound....its not caused because of one person...
its caused because of many towards one....and the many (no one knows anyone)
....its a long story of a life ,,,that life is mine....
and the winds were too strong coming from everyone.....
sometimes you there for them....
many times you out there without them...
sometimes you want them to be near...
but cant even try to make them hear it clear..
its always some fears that you cant reveal
its always some tears that you cant heal...
its always some dreams that you cant have for real...
it always end YOU with YOU
but i began to love me with me...
as me is all i can be...
i was just too far from me..
trying to be what they want me to be....
forgetting all about me...
iam trying now to take good care of me....
regardless to what they see....
or what they want me to be...
i will always be ME....
the one i used to be and the one will always be....
i will always be ME.....
the one who have many dreams to achieve...
i will always be ME....
the one who was afraid to see whats really deep inside me
but now its time to listen and see and believe
listen to what she has been trying to tell me
see what she has been trying to show me for a longtime been
believe in her and what she has been trying to keep for me
its time to share out loud with life
its time to stop blaming myself for being me
its time to never fear whats coming towards me
its time to not regret what passed as this what made me see ME
Dear ME : "i will never let you go away or be lost again,its time to have faith and carry on with life`s race"

Lover's Cove Challenge #3 7/26/2012

The beauty within your soul that kidnapped me to an endless dream of your own

apd-loverscove.blogspot.com***

a carol

once upon a time there was a butterfly flying in a very beautiful garden....

such garden was full of beautiful roses.....having awesome scent and magnificent look

such butterfly lately lost her close butterfly and they got lost in a very big forest....

so the lovely butterfly was soooooooooooooo sad on such loss

that every day it flies and flies trying to search for her missing part but unfortunately....

couldnt find him....he was lost and not found......

for so many days she was alone crying and crying cos she felt sooo lonely wizout him

he was her warmth in the coldy nights....he was her guardian angel....

he was the reason for her smile.....he was the tender touch that touch her face and wash away her tears

every night after their journey from a rose to another....they used to talk and talk

till they suddenly fall asleep and he wakes her up every new dawn

announcing and decrlaring a new day in their lives together

after the trajedy of such loss she couldnt find the taste of honey and she couldnt see the beauty no more

she felt she got blind cos she used to see life through his eyes.......

but now she felt as if she lost all her senses and cant get back no more

so many lonely dark cold nights came on her and passed by and....

every night pass by and leave a dark lonely part inside her soul

that oneday she felt such darkness spreaded all over her soul

that she felt she hardly breathe and cant get in and out .....

at this day she was so tired that her faith that he is still alive was about to vanish

that she was gonna start to believe that he is gone wiz no returning back

suddenly she started to hear a sweet carol from far away....

she tried to check where its coming from....

so she let her steps lead her to such carol.....

that she reached the bay....and there...just there....

she found a lovely beautiful rose singing a special song

such song was dedicated for her so as to support her in her grieve and try to wash away her tears

at this moment such lovely rose turned to the butterfly and smiled at her saying.....

saying " here u are ......i have been singing such song for u so that the sky wud carry it to ur beloved one"

the butterfly tried to wash awy her tears

and she replied wiz a small smile saying "u think that your carol wud reach my love and find him and whisper into him and show him the way back here?"

the rose replied .....well my carol wud search for him indeed but wt can show him the way back is the melody of ur heart beat

lets sit together and sing together at such dark night....may be our carol wud find him and you find him around u back again

...hey my sweet butterfly come close to me and lets sing together.....

let ur words get out loud....let ur shout go far to search for him and get him back

at such dark night he wud be in dead dead need for such deep call that coming from ur soul

lets start.....wt are we gonna lose......lets start...shall we?

the butterfly replied "i feel so weak,i dunno if iam capable of singing again "

hey my sweet butterfly ...come come....get closer and lets start.....trust me....

so the butterfly listened to such angelic rose and they started together to sing out loud.....

so that everything in such bay...the trees ...the birds.....the moon...the stars....the grass.....

alllllllllll waked up and they shared them their song......so when a new voice come and join....

the melody get much more listened over the whole bay.....and much louder

that such melody became a glowing spark that started to go up and down...here and there...searching for him......

till.............................finall it found him and he waked up on such melody...

all his senses realised at once that it was the song that he used to sing wiz his beloved butterfly....

he was soooo tired and sick but when he listened to such melody....all his pain vanished...

he found himself caught by such spark that it surrounded him and lightened up his path

that it was showing him the way back home......

he was passing through the forest ...and the more close his steps get towards his beloved....

the more and strong the melody heard......

till he finally found himself infront of her.....

at such moment she was singing while she was closing her eyes....

she was closing her eyes so she can see him deep inside ......

at this moment she found a well knwon touch that touch her face.....

while she was closing her eyes and dreaming of him deep inside her....

she was awaken on a well knwon touch that she opened her eyes to find herself wiz him in reality....

such moment was timeless......silence controlled the whole bay.......

everyone was silent.....just watching their meeting after being far apart

just listening to the drops of tears falling down .....like diamonds....lighting up all around them

such tears of joy took the place instead of tears of pain

that when they were together....such darkness and coldness that caught the whole bay....

it simply vanished and warmth controlled the bay back again.....

so everyone went to their homes wishing them happiness and joy

and that they wud live happily ever after........

and that their presence together would affect the whole bay and would spread joy and love around everyone who watch them together...... 


 wrote on Monday 25th August,2008