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Saturday, March 23, 2013

it`s always ourselves we find in the sea

Today my eyes met such quote and immediately captured my mind and soul
as i do believe in that so much
no matter how lost I can be
the sea always gather the aches of"me"
and repair me slowly with every whisper he whispers to me
there,only there i feel im taken care of
there,only there i feel my silent shout is heard
there,only there my heart can scream
there,only there my eyes can drop all the tears that has been hidden deep inside me
there,only there i feel im loved
there,only there i feel im not alone
the sea has always been there for me for real
at such life you meet who keep saying we are there for you,we are around while the fact is
they aren`t really around,can`t really feel you nor be there for you
they only spread their words but not their actions
cos simply they dont know you like sea does
they dont know how they can act towards you
how can they try to cure you and be really around
if you count the words and real actions in your life
you would have dozens of words and very few actions
thats life,you meet many and cherish few
so its better to stop blaming people cos they won`t even understand the blame
you simply blame yourself for expecting at the first place
this is life,its not your fairy-tale and if you wanna live your fairy-tale simply don`t share
you were wrong letting people listening to some of your melodies
as they won`t understand its meaning,so play it but for noone but yourself
don`t do the effort for explaining cos they won`t understand and your soul will be the only one complaining
whenever you feel lonely ,just drop everything and run towards the sea
and you gonna feel complete,there you may sway with every melody of your heart beat
my beloved sea,thanks for being there for me

searching for someone called "me"

strange feeling controlling me when i came back to my place in here
actually not just one feeling,many and many
in here i feel myself,i feel the things i miss at real life
in here i feel i can see the real" me"
as in real life i can see only my mirage
my"me"used to be inisde "me"&with "me"
i somehow lost her at real life
don`t know how i let this happened
but it just happened
in real life,im feeling lost,lonely,sad,down,choked
cant even listen to myself
may be cos of the many echos around " me"
may be iam crazy,cos both are the same"me"
but real life was so hard
that it separated them apart
back to writing is a way to get her back to" me"
its all trials may be it would work,may be not
but in all cases its" me" with "me"
so the trial wont include others
so it worth the try,cos its " me" im searching for in here

Thursday, March 21, 2013


sitting all alone,thinking killing me&silence drifting me far away from everthing i know&everything inside, sometimes life becomes an evil monster that destroys every plant that you have been planting for years,all i wish now is to still be having the seeds,sometimes you feel you standing alone on your own, i used to get afraid of such moment till i knew its the best thing to do,go far away and be with yourself, cos any silent shout is never replied nor heard i realized that being abandoned is much better than being surrounded by many and still you feel lonely and they never meet your expectations, at such life to live happily is to expect none , cos when ppl dont meet your expectations you feel so bad, really bad,i wish i didnt have to stand alone but life taught me that i have to, nomatter how im dying deep inside,nomatter how my soul is bleeding i have to,im the victim and im the healer,thats how it shall be, i never thought that oneday i would write that way but i have no other way i miss my dreamy moments i miss myself i miss my soul when it sway i miss everything that has been planted deep in my way when i didnt plan for a kidnapping moment, i found my feet taking me to my beloved sea at one of the places that have been captured in a pic that i still carry,i found mysoul listening to an old song saying you&i,like a ship forever sailling,thats you&me my beloved sea,i miss you&i miss me