RFW wk41 : it`s me

its a big wound....its not caused because of one person...
its caused because of many towards one....and the many (no one knows anyone)
....its a long story of a life ,,,that life is mine....
and the winds were too strong coming from everyone.....
sometimes you there for them....
many times you out there without them...
sometimes you want them to be near...
but cant even try to make them hear it clear..
its always some fears that you cant reveal
its always some tears that you cant heal...
its always some dreams that you cant have for real...
it always end YOU with YOU
but i began to love me with me...
as me is all i can be...
i was just too far from me..
trying to be what they want me to be....
forgetting all about me...
iam trying now to take good care of me....
regardless to what they see....
or what they want me to be...
i will always be ME....
the one i used to be and the one will always be....
i will always be ME.....
the one who have many dreams to achieve...
i will always be ME....
the one who was afraid to see whats really deep inside me
but now its time to listen and see and believe
listen to what she has been trying to tell me
see what she has been trying to show me for a longtime been
believe in her and what she has been trying to keep for me
its time to share out loud with life
its time to stop blaming myself for being me
its time to never fear whats coming towards me
its time to not regret what passed as this what made me see ME
Dear ME : "i will never let you go away or be lost again,its time to have faith and carry on with life`s race"

Lover's Cove Challenge #3 7/26/2012

The beauty within your soul that kidnapped me to an endless dream of your own

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a carol

once upon a time there was a butterfly flying in a very beautiful garden....

such garden was full of beautiful roses.....having awesome scent and magnificent look

such butterfly lately lost her close butterfly and they got lost in a very big forest....

so the lovely butterfly was soooooooooooooo sad on such loss

that every day it flies and flies trying to search for her missing part but unfortunately....

couldnt find him....he was lost and not found......

for so many days she was alone crying and crying cos she felt sooo lonely wizout him

he was her warmth in the coldy nights....he was her guardian angel....

he was the reason for her smile.....he was the tender touch that touch her face and wash away her tears

every night after their journey from a rose to another....they used to talk and talk

till they suddenly fall asleep and he wakes her up every new dawn

announcing and decrlaring a new day in their lives together

after the trajedy of such loss she couldnt find the taste of honey and she couldnt see the beauty no more

she felt she got blind cos she used to see life through his eyes.......

but now she felt as if she lost all her senses and cant get back no more

so many lonely dark cold nights came on her and passed by and....

every night pass by and leave a dark lonely part inside her soul

that oneday she felt such darkness spreaded all over her soul

that she felt she hardly breathe and cant get in and out .....

at this day she was so tired that her faith that he is still alive was about to vanish

that she was gonna start to believe that he is gone wiz no returning back

suddenly she started to hear a sweet carol from far away....

she tried to check where its coming from....

so she let her steps lead her to such carol.....

that she reached the bay....and there...just there....

she found a lovely beautiful rose singing a special song

such song was dedicated for her so as to support her in her grieve and try to wash away her tears

at this moment such lovely rose turned to the butterfly and smiled at her saying.....

saying " here u are ......i have been singing such song for u so that the sky wud carry it to ur beloved one"

the butterfly tried to wash awy her tears

and she replied wiz a small smile saying "u think that your carol wud reach my love and find him and whisper into him and show him the way back here?"

the rose replied .....well my carol wud search for him indeed but wt can show him the way back is the melody of ur heart beat

lets sit together and sing together at such dark night....may be our carol wud find him and you find him around u back again

...hey my sweet butterfly come close to me and lets sing together.....

let ur words get out loud....let ur shout go far to search for him and get him back

at such dark night he wud be in dead dead need for such deep call that coming from ur soul

lets start.....wt are we gonna lose......lets start...shall we?

the butterfly replied "i feel so weak,i dunno if iam capable of singing again "

hey my sweet butterfly ...come come....get closer and lets start.....trust me....

so the butterfly listened to such angelic rose and they started together to sing out loud.....

so that everything in such bay...the trees ...the birds.....the moon...the stars....the grass.....

alllllllllll waked up and they shared them their song......so when a new voice come and join....

the melody get much more listened over the whole bay.....and much louder

that such melody became a glowing spark that started to go up and down...here and there...searching for him......

till.............................finall it found him and he waked up on such melody...

all his senses realised at once that it was the song that he used to sing wiz his beloved butterfly....

he was soooo tired and sick but when he listened to such melody....all his pain vanished...

he found himself caught by such spark that it surrounded him and lightened up his path

that it was showing him the way back home......

he was passing through the forest ...and the more close his steps get towards his beloved....

the more and strong the melody heard......

till he finally found himself infront of her.....

at such moment she was singing while she was closing her eyes....

she was closing her eyes so she can see him deep inside ......

at this moment she found a well knwon touch that touch her face.....

while she was closing her eyes and dreaming of him deep inside her....

she was awaken on a well knwon touch that she opened her eyes to find herself wiz him in reality....

such moment was timeless......silence controlled the whole bay.......

everyone was silent.....just watching their meeting after being far apart

just listening to the drops of tears falling down .....like diamonds....lighting up all around them

such tears of joy took the place instead of tears of pain

that when they were together....such darkness and coldness that caught the whole bay....

it simply vanished and warmth controlled the bay back again.....

so everyone went to their homes wishing them happiness and joy

and that they wud live happily ever after........

and that their presence together would affect the whole bay and would spread joy and love around everyone who watch them together...... 


 wrote on Monday 25th August,2008

RFW WK40 :Pray on a bay

today……i heard your pray… It was coming from far away…. It was so strange that my soul started to sway As I was walking down the bay…. All of a sudden I felt its getting grey… I couldn’t say…. Whether iam dreaming or iam drifted away Whether its really raining…. Or its your tears spreading all over the bay…. I tried badly to find a way In such a dark day Come what may Is it really grey… Or its your weeping cloud Covering the whole bay Come what may Is it really grey Or its just a mirage Controlling the whole bay I suddenly lost my way I cant find any ray I turned around trying to find your painful sound But all I found was you….getting blue…. I tried make you breathe…. But there was so much inside you unreleased …just try….breathe…breathe… I wished it was a dream…. I wished it wasn’t real…. Seeing you with such painful peal… Made me feeling so much fear…. For a second I found you so weird…. Trying to hold tight a harmful reed As if you have nothing else to lose As if you wanted to bleed To get all the poison out and get healed I tried to make you breathe But your pain was making you getting freezed Its getting cold You looking so bold I searched for a candle to hold So as to keep you warm Come what may…. I felt so lost in such bay… I couldn’t handle such decay All I had was to pray…. That was the only way…. All of sudden I found the cloud escaping away As if my pray was heard all over the bay…. I found my eyes reaching the sky again… I found you breathing again… I found the harmful reed turning on to grain… That winds came and blow it up in vain… I tried to find a reason for such change… I realized it was just a pray that destroyed the chain…. A chain that made us prisoners in such pain…. It was the moment of the dawn… The sun was trying to find her way on… The rays were breaking every grey Turning such grey to a brightful day It’s a brand new day…. A day that carry hope all over the bay… I turned to you to say…… Don’t let your sorrow and pain drift you away… You turned to me to say… . Don’t let your sorrow and pain drift you away As both of us were lost in such bay…. The bay……carried so much pain deep inside The bay…….witnessed so many silent shouts un replied We realized how many things were out of sight We realized how many things we didn’t stand to fight I looked at you…….you looked at me…. We randomly met….which wasn’t planned to be I saved you once …..you saved me once…. We met on a crossing board May be one of us was meant to be abroad May be one day….we`ll meet down the road But this time it wont be for exchanging load Let it be for…… Lets leave it opened…. Lets leave it to faith…. May be one day we will meet And what`s missed will be complete…. For now I will leave you to feel released…. Till we meet........

sometimes

....when we live all our life dreaming and dreaming...sometimes we get afraid we would have been living inside our dream that our true endless moment passed us by ...without feeling it cos we have been prisoners in our dreams.....

the crazy me

air is making me fly

its so strong yet so soft

i know iam crazy

i know iam not a normal person anymore whos normal anyway?

although i cant really c whats there for a while now

but i have this feeling that its really out there

i dont wanna doubt it

but i still caNT and dont wanna c whats going on

but the feeling keeps telling me that everything being replied

that everything being taken care of

its words going between here and thee

thats why its better to be sitting in here

sharing and seeing many souls lost in everywhere

than in reading what you nomore cant really keep

but theres something keeps telling you that its not only you here

but what difference will it make?

if you can be heard or can be replied

its still you sitting all alone kidnapped by such air

where every wave comes and capture you to the nowhere

does all this makes any sense

or its just some nonsense senses created by the air slabbing to your soul

.....................................................................ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

a fight with life

 Among the gathering,here comes "me"

i was looking from one to another

spreading ma smile

trying to forget any pain i carry

telling myself to hold on tight

no matter how i can have an inner fight

but im standing still

iam still having myself

thats what i need to know

thats what i need to take care for

its me and no one else

no matter what

no matter who

no matter where

i have to take a good care

try to find a way out of such pain

no matter how long it takes

but iam ready to take whatever it takes

may be i cry now

but later i will never do like a fool

it will always be a smile

and some tears at few darky nights

thats what i should have infront of my sight

that i will always have a life`s fight

but at every fight,one i will win

and another i will get a life`s bite

but in all cases thats me standing carrying the lighting candle of my life

Drops of rain...(a day i will keep inside me forever-friday 14-12-07) i really do

drops of rain....

 pieces of pure ice.....falling down like rice.....

touching every part of me.....taking me where i used to be.....

drops of rain.....

 it falls on ur head and starts to knock...knocktill your soul re open the dreamy gate.....

drops of rain....

 sitting and sitting...

looking to the faces....

listening to the whispers......

till a sudden invisble carol appeared and touched me and took my hand and started to pull me away....

so faaaaaaaaaaaaaaar away....

....till my eyes reached the opened space where my eyes met the drops of rain..

where every drop started to fall softly on my face....washing away the internal space.....

finding its way to my frozen soul....trying to repair the pain of my wounded soul,,,,,

trying to recharge and collect back the spreading chain.....

drops of rain....

 when drops of rain fall.....it falls deep inside me.....

touching my spreading parts of my soul....

trying to water it and collect it overall.....

drops of rain....

 a sparkle stone....lighting my way back home....

drops of rain....

 an invisible true chain that will always remain.....

drops of rain....

 a very cold frozen touch that would mean so much.....

drops of rain.....

 a few drops of rain wud take you to an invisible framless frame where you can feel no pain.....

drops of rain....

 take me in a long run while iam still in my place where suddenly

iam weary to my bones.....

Blog Hop Saturday

A journey of today Saturday 30th June,2012

Just listening to some soft music closing my eyes and imagining myself at a certain place and i just feel like a princess dancing from a cloud to another that i cant feel poeple around me,designing dwgs as an architect yeah but smiling as if z screen is my window whenever i look at it i feel myself in wonderland and just clicking the mouse make me feel im kidnapped to another world,some ppl would say im up normal and rare who would click and meet me there but its really amazing how some melodies and closing eyes for few moments would make u live in another place while u still sitting at your place at work,some or all would say im crazy ,well i admit iam crazy and i dont care ,i just wish i would never come back but wishes don`t last but at least i had my journey of the day

Lovers' Cove June Challenge

I`ll be here,was that a promise for her or just words to calm her down,did he really mean it?or it was just a tender touch to wash her tears
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